I’m just so confused about my life. I don’t know anything. I don’t know what I want. I know nothing.
I’m in this transitional phase of my life and it’s really difficult to understand. I have so many things going on that I can’t mentally sort through them so I start having multiple feelings about them. I literally can’t decide how I feel about anything so I decide to feel both happy and sad about everything. I’ll decide that something is right but it’s wrong. I want it but I don’t want it. What do I do about this? Nothing. Just keep existing and trying to keep afloat. I feel like my future depends on what happens within the next couple years, and more importantly right now. I feel so much pressure about what I do with my life right now and how it will affect me later.
I feel like all I can do is sort through things that I know I can change. Organize my room. Organize the basement. Go to the gym. Paint my nails. Things I can control. I like being in control of my life.